Ranty Alexis is Ranty

This is a frustration rant. This will suck. And it has cursing. So, small children and the elderly, click away. You have been warned.

As most of you know, I am having a birthday party. Which my parents are renting out the whole skating rink. Why they had to do that, and not just have it during one of the normal times is beyond me. Then, we weren't confirmed for what date it was till yesterday. YESTERDAY. I have known less than 24 hours when this thing is. My parents are on me about inviting people, making sure enough people are there, when they wouldn't make a phone call a week ago. I have been bothering them to call to confirm the date for a WHOLE FREAKING WEEK. They are also on me about being behind in school, and being a total failure in life. (Not really. I just added that last part.) Either way. I told them in July that I didn't want a party, because no one ever comes. It is lonely, and usually makes me feel worse about myself than normal. Then they guilted me in with, "Oh, your sister only had 3 people come to her party because her birthday is in July. (Which is not true, she had like 10. Which is more than I ever have.) If not for you, then for her." I said yes. Then it was a joint party. So, Syd got half the control of everything. Though she got a party. Already. And people spent the night. Just...argg. So, just now. My parents guilted me again. My dad was like,"...a party we are spending $200 on." Seriously? I said I didn't want one from the get go. Now you are guilting me? Come on. Like I said, you could have had it at one of the times open for the public, and not rent out the whole freaking thing. Why? Because I was worried that I didn't have enough friends. There. I said it. I am lonely, because I am a terrible friend, and a b*tch to a lot of people. That is why I don't want a birthday party, or renting out the whole rink. Because I felt as if I did not have enough friends and the majority of the people there would be Syd's friends. I would have 5-6 of my friends there tops. Syd would have like, 25.

So there. My frustrations are mostly out. Thank you for letting me rant. I am just really frustrated right now. Mostly because I am a failure to my parents. (Though they don't say it.) I am going to go call and invite people now. Bye...